My Poetry (English - Usha)-This is me

This is me
I won't change
Love me or hate me
Doesn't matter, I am to blame.

When I pass by,
and see them to the side,
I don't know what to say
because I am what they hate

Laughs and comments
is what I hear
And then I just want to disappear
and never to see them

But what can I do
I cant leave them
That's what I am
And nothing could change me

Plus what have I done?
to make them feel the way about me.
cant we just be good friends
and not hate or betray?

Sometimes its jealousy
But what are they jealous of?
I am not so pretty and not ugly
Is it my voice?
Is it my attitude?

I can't change it
So what do they want?
What can they have?
I can't leave and just believe

I just wish it could stop
because it is not fun any more
It hurts me deeply
It cuts me real deep.

Doesn't make me happy
It gets my hairs go nappy
I just get go mad and sad, still I
Just hope one day it stops.

.......................... Usha